18 july

Firstly i wanna Thank the wonderful,cool and happening people of Class E36B for going through the trouble to cheer me up and celebrate my day. Thanks everyone.. though u got to sacrifice the time to do your preparation for presentation n all..really appreciate it... Thanks once again. so sorry for not being myself and being cranky guess it was due to the accumulate tiredness from working straight for 4days.

my class is just so cool and fun, they even got their own blog.. http://www.e36b-2009.blogspot.com/.. visit them and find out more.

I'll let the pic do the talking...



The cake brought by the class- it was Wendy's belated Birthday celebration too..

I buying ice-cream for all of them for being so nice.. :)




another day to cherish..

5 july 09

It’s been some time since I logged on and blog... i some time wonder who am i blogging for? What difference does it make if they read or not? But i guess it’s more for myself, for me to remind myself of the mistakes or memorable moments from the past, to reflect on my life and keep track of my progress.

It’s been 2 months plus ever since i’m in school. I should say it’s an eye –opener for me , from getting to meet different people and working together with them. Of course there’s time you will have your difficulties with your team members but that’s all part of learning and how you tackle and overcome these issues. I have completed my first UT. Results aren’t that good. Mostly C’s n B. Next week UT2 is coming...god save me!! Haha.. Thankfully my daily grades aren’t that bad so I’m really depending on them to help me pull through..

I found myself a part-time job in F&B line. $5 per hour, not bad for a part-timer’s starting pay. There are few reason why I’m taking up this job, Firstly since i have my bike to support now and pay for he’s instalment i need this. I don’t want to be going up to my dad asking for money every time, I just don’t feel right, i always felt i should be already supporting him financially. Second reason is i realise i have too much Free time on my own..Literally “ON MY OWN”.. and i think that’s not something good.. i want to keep myself occupied, make myself tired with school and work so that i won’t have to go through the nightmare of having sleepless nights and ending up getting depressed over certain matters. I don’t wish to go back to those days again!!!
It’s been a week now since i’m in work, been learning alot of things from setting up tables to providing information to customer on the menu. I know it’s going to be tough and i might end up burning out myself but this is something i willing to take the chance on to avoid myself from becoming a depressed kid. I hope this helps and HE gives me the strength to cope well with both school and work.

My only uncle got married last month; my family went to witness the function at KL. A side of my Mom that i saw that really left me with trauma and it triggered something in me. I felt bad for the bride. My mom’s been away for a month now, she’s in India with her family. I really miss her presence at home though and my little sis too.

Why is it that i feel you’re not yourself when you’re with me? Why is it that i feel i’m like trapping your air and you’re made to suffocate in my presence? It’s painful to see you in that state.. I want you to be yourself, i want us to have conversations just like how you have with your other friends, And what i Really want is you to be HAPPY. I know i have issue over my conversation skills, maybe it’s entirely my fault for being such a bore so If i’m acting like a barrier to your happiness, then i want it removed.


From far i shall care and in silent i shall continue...

Right here Waiting...

I don't know what else i can do..so I'll Wait...

ORD oh...

finally the day i have been anticipating has arrived.. i ORD for Real!!!
sometime i taught i would never be able to see this day come.. but yup.. i should say time made it rather then me..i know i gave up at some point..especially after all my good buddies left the branch!! haha.. i really couldn't feel it..when it was nearing the date..may b i over anticipated...
now i move on in life.. i got another 3 more years to mold myself ready for the workforce. Hope i have a pleasant and fruitful years in Republic poly.
i'll never forget the moments and friends i have made in this 1 year 10 months of service to the nation. I believe they will stick with me for life. I want to take this opportunity to thank all the folks who have been with me through out the tough times. You know who you are no need for intro..Really appreciate it all..
though i could be a little emotional at times and call u in the middle of the night,yet u still bother to entertain me.. when i'm in need of finding a bike..you are willing to go through the trouble on yr sat & sun evening off to follow me..willing to bring me things all the way from office to OLD mt line to clean up SWIFT even when you are not my branch.. and there's many more event that you really stood by me..i'm really thankful for all that.lastly Thanks for this entry made for me as well..

***THIS IS NOT GOODBYE!!!!

One ending & Another Begining..

April is up..And all of the event that i mention in the last post was accomplished..
-i got my bike licence with 1 attempt..prior to the test i was really shaking inside , didn’t ever thought i would clear with 1 go.. thank god for that ..
-i missed to catch the show i was filmed for yang-ter..arghh..how could i miss such a thing! Dame! Anyone recorded it could pass me to get your free autographe... haha!
- my braces got removed but i’m given retainers to be put on instead..i really am not use to smiling without the braces, feel so naked without them..Well they been part of me for 5 years..guess it’s just normal..Besides Retainers are really irritating, they are affecting my speech greatly so i decided to only put them on at night..
-went for my most waited holiday @ redang(paradise)
Yes it’s really a paradise, just like the ones u see in the movies..it was worth every penny!!!
I really can’t find the words to show how much the trip was to me..Just that it could have been better and complete if someone else was there with me to share the good moments..some pic’s below of the unforgettable moments..
-school have started for me..1st day was rocky and i’m really thankful to have thoughtful friends to support me on my 1st day there...u know who u are..u don’t need intro..But I think I’m getting to blend in slowly and my first week grades aren’t that bad.. 1C,1B, & 2 A’s
I know there’s much to come...and much more to learn and achieve..will do my best..
-my dad’s financial crises isn’t getting any better and ever since the rojak incident it’s only Deteriorating.. he has sold his vito ven..hope things turn out better for him..he has always been my up most worry.. sometime i really wonder why he’s being put through so much..and when is this going to end for him..i really feel worthless as a son..to see him suffer in silence and not being able to help..Sometime i feel like quitting school to work to support him..

Alright lets not get too emo here and move on to my Ns life side.. i’m left with 8 days to my “pink” freedom.. been really waiting for this day for very long..but the irony is, as the day is getting closer i’m not excited anymore..i’m feeling-less... may be i have anticipated for it too long ..
Or may be is my school that has made me feel this way... but whatever it is..i’m gonna leave for good very soon..and definitely going to miss all the good memories and buddies that i have made in this 1yr 10 months..This wasn’t the place i wanted to go in for NS at 1st..but now i’m thankful to god that i’m here and not else where..and i’m proud to be a MEDIC! Just like the motto "we live to save"... with that i shall end today's post..and see what the future holds for me..

The 4 of us heading to the paradise



i really like this 1..haha..but too bad no fish ..may be they got scared!!!